i spent the whole day at NUH ytd waiting outside the intensive care unit. my grandpa is hospitalised. and ytd was probably the last time i will ever see him again. his condition was really bad. his heart stopped about two times and the doctors still managed to revive him tho. when i went into the room to take a look, he looked very frail. and all he relied on now was the life-sustaining machine tt help his heart pump properly. two of my aunties cried. they only started crying when i enter the room. how untimely. i just made myself focused on something else. first was my grandpa's face. then i realise wrong choice cos it made my nose feel a bit weird. then i focused on the screen showing the heartbeat and blood pressure and kept asking my bro what it is.. cos he's a paramedic in ns aft all. i think he knew tt i was gg to cry or sth so he kept talking non stop. explaining abt the blood pressure and stuff. he was really nice and sweet and squeezed my hand. i knew he was trying to stop me from crying but his skills was so lousy tt i started to laugh at him aft we left the room.. at least i stayed in the room for a while. my cousin, mel, fled aft seeing my aunties crying cos she was tearing alr. today is the second day alr. i really really hope he can pull through.. and becos assessment week i cant go down today.. hai. i alr lost my grandma when i was p6. i lost my great-grandma when i was sec one. maybe it's good for him to go aft all so he does not need to experience any pain anymore.. )): and all i can do now is pray for him...