i had an urge to read through my archives today. i realised that i had this blog going on since sec one. that was like two years ago. i looked back at all good and bad in between this three years. it's really amazing to see myself changed so much. when thirteen of age, i was a foolish and totally immature person. at fourteen, i see that sudden change and it didn come by smoothly. but now, i am kind of glad that i've changed. you still loved me then.

now when i see people like you standing stubbornly at one point and not going to realise the fact that it was time to change your mindset, i feel sorry for you. i really do. so many people i've seen talked about dying and wanting to die themselves. but i know you arent serious about it. you just said it for the sake of saying it or even merely just wanting me to give you that care, that concern. no i wont. because i know that you dont need it.

life is all about working hard for what you want. if you're not going to work hard, there wont be anyone else to help you out anymore. so please stop all that nonsense and pick yourself up. stop depending on me to give you that hope.