I'm afraid. Because I'm profoundly happy. Happiness like this is frightening. They only let you be this happy if they're preparing to take something from you.

this was a line i came across while reading the kite runner. I'm finishing it real soon haha fine yes yes till now i still haven't finish that book yet. my holidays' been hectic with trainings, h3, holiday homework and last but not least with all types of friends. haha. sometimes i feel that way. whoever's controlling fate, life or destiny (i'm a free thinker) doesn't give you the entire package of happiness without anything in exchange. i am truly happy now. i feel that i'm improving in netball, have nice teammates to train with, i like my coaches as well. erm and i'm not dying in h3, not stressed out by homework, have cool friends to party and hang out with during this festive season. lastly of course i feel loved :) so i can't help but feeling that they're going to take something away from me soon. yes i think i know. they gonna take you away on 15 december.